Hey friends
Hope everyone has been having a nice fall season so far. I’m digging finally getting some colder weather here and there in SoCal.
Breaking out of the comfort zone
Lately, there are 2 things I have been having trouble with.
giving myself a day off/turning off my brain
recording myself in public.
So this past week I decided to record a video that would challenge both of those ideas.
So, I think I have trouble turning my brain off of work mode at times because it was such a struggle to get to where I’m at today.
During the COVID lockdown and my employee Jobs before I was in straight-up grind mode. Working every day and at times for more than 8 hours (especially when I had my 9-5 to balance with my own projects)
At those times I dreamed of being able to make my own schedule and work less but more efficiently.
My dreams haven’t quite come to full fruition but I am making some progress and definitely can afford to work fewer hours these days and make better use of my time.
With that being said even when client projects are slim (this fall so far has been dry tbh) and my YouTube video schedule isn’t hectic I still feel this subconscious pressure.
I think since I had to work so hard at one point my brain is still stuck in those ways and its hard to re-adjust.
I get so much anxiety around an empty calendar. It sounds silly because that is the type of sight that should probably be bringing me joy lol.
When I’m not busy with client work or YouTube I can’t help but bury myself into personal projects instead of enjoying the relaxing flow.
This comes into issues because when the other work starts to pick up again I’m still stuck with all these other crazy commitments.
I have been getting better though and this past Wednesday took an entire day off, and to help with my second issue, I filmed the entire day.
It was hard for me to not feel like I was “wasting” time all day, especially since I don’t live right in LA anymore and there aren’t a bunch of other unemployed people to blend in with my age lol.
So I recorded myself a bunch in public both talking and setting up shots with the tripod and whatnot.
Once I got halfway through the day though I kind of realized it doesn’t matter what people think of me doing this.
If I want to make the best video for myself and all of you, fuck what a random person at the sandwich shop thinks of me talking into my phone.
I haven’t quite finished editing it yet but I’m so happy with how the video turned out, feels nostalgic like the old king of YouTube videos I used to enjoy watching. None of that sensational crap.
Honestly, it was an amazing day overall and I hope the finished project allows me to express my creativity effectively to all of you.
I’m stoked to release it so stay tuned.
In the meantime checkout this playlist I made with The Yellow Button
Much love and talk soon🧡
Stuff to Check Out
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Weekly Wrap Up
My Journey as a Graphic Designer
Cover art for playlist I made with The Yellow Button
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